Nothing is limiting me and that's the problem.

When I was a child, like most children, I was told that I could be anything I wanted to be. Overwhelmed with the possibilities, I declared that I was going to be everything. I wanted to be a pilot, a scientist, an explorer, a writer, an artist, an actor, a singer, the president of the United States. I was going to change the world for the better and inspire millions. I was going to do it all. Of course some one told me that I couldn't do it all. No one could. But I thought that I could because I was smart, talented, and pretty. I was told that I was all those things not just by my parents but by teachers, friends, and even strangers. Since I had all this going for me, I thought that I have to use all the gifts I've been given. It would be a waste not to.

Now I'm 21 and I have no clue what to do with my life. I hear a lot of people are in the same boat as me, they have no clue what to do with their life, either. But most of those people say things like "I'm not good at anything" or "There isn't anything I want to do" or "I won't be able to do that." I don't say those things. No, I say "I'm good at too many things,""There are too many things I want to do," and "I could do anything." I'm not saying this to be boastful or conceited. It is just the truth. I have too many options. The only thing limiting me is myself... and I'm doing a terrible job of it.

I had a breakdown last year that finally made me realize that I need to take a break from it all. I love college, I love learning. But I can't do it any more. I can't do anything any more.

That's when I took a semester off and learned how to breathe... and I made the brilliant decision to change my major from Pre-Art Therapy to TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language) during my junior year of college... which guarantees that I will not only be a fifth year senior but most likely a sixth year senior.

So why the change? I realized that would be miserable and perfectly terrible at being a therapist. It is too taxing to deal with people's problems head on, especially when the relationship I have with those people is not a symbiotic one. Can't do it. Now what?

Over the semester I've been reading a lot of blogs of English teachers from all over the world and I started to wonder if that might be right for me. My first true love is traveling, after all. I love the English language and excelled in English courses. I tutored people in high school and college for English and Lit. Courses. Maybe I could do this.

So that's where my life is now. And a note to those younger than me, still struggling on what to do... I've discovered that you don't need to make those decisions right now. We will get there eventually.